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chasingthdragon
14 September 2010 @ 10:41 pm
So I quit smoking today.

It's really weird. I've told myself tons of times, especially since... July 1st, I think it was, when the new tax kicked in (making smokes 10 bucks a pack), that I was gonna kick the habit, and no matter how close I came, there was always one day that set me back to square one, ruining any type of progress I made over the few weeks prior. Usually, it would be a party that collapsed the proverbial house of cards. I would go over to a friend's place, and we'd start drinking, and out of nowhere, I would start craving cigarettes, fiending for my next fix, and the next thing I knew, bam, I had smoked a pack.

I have to cut myself off here, before I go into my actual quitting, because smoking has always been such a weird subject. I remember growing up, when I was maybe 7 or 8, my mom would smoke a lot. And I would always nag her to quit, because my 7 year old brain absorbed everything I had learned in school about cigarettes being awful (which they are. I'm certainly not downplaying the ill effects of cigarettes, I just took that at face value back then because I only had seven years of life experience under my belt, and I wasn't about to find out for myself at that age), and eventually, she did. But she would always make me promise that I would never smoke myself. My father died of a brain tumor when I was 5, and he smoked a lot growing up, and my mom didn't want me going down that same path. Incidentally, I read the letter my father wrote me before he passed away, and while I was kind of surprised, as I remember it being a lot longer than barely over a page (though a long page, one of those big yellow lined legal notepads), he had included in there not to smoke or do drugs or anything like that. That's already been shot to shit, but hey, I haven't read the thing in like, 15 years.

When my mom found out I smoked when I was like, 17 or 18, she got pissed, and I started getting good at hiding it from her. A few years later, and it's kind of lost it's magic, it's coolness, it's sex appeal, if you will. So this morning, when I was going to get coffee with my girlfriend, I had a cigarette, and when I finished, I flicked it out the window, and simply said out loud, "I'm quitting. That cigarette tasted like shit".

I had always discussed with my friends quitting, but it was always more for the monetary reasons than the health reasons. We're all relatively young, and health isn't a big concern yet. This morning, I realized that even at 22, health is a priority for me. I'm done smoking. Weed and cigarettes. The weed thing is a horrible story for another time, though. I'm done doing drugs. I may try shrooms once in the near future, but after doing E a few times, it has lost a lot of it's luster, and I really don't like the way I feel on the comedown from it. I'd rather drink, having a good time with my friends, and not worry about coughing up black shit anymore.
 
 
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chasingthdragon
23 May 2010 @ 10:34 am
Fuck. So it's been a while since I updated. I guess a good bit has been going on, I'm not really sure. I finished college, kinda. I still have three classes to take over the summer so I can actually get my diploma, but technically, I'm finished with college. It's really surreal, and it went by really fucking fast. I kinda miss it already. I'm scared to go out into the real world. Sadly, I have to fuck with my summer schedule some more, once I pay off the classes I'm taking, because I have to move the film class I'm taking in the first part of the summer into the second. The class starts in like, 2 weeks, and goes for the first two weekends in June, but I haven't told my job yet, because I never see my bosses, and they never answer their phones or fucking call me back, so dropping it on them now would make them pissed. Plus, the last two weekends of June are already taken in my schedule. My sister's graduating high school on the 19th, and then on the 23rd, I'm going upstate for the Desiderata Festival for 5 days of hippie electronic music. I'm fucking psyched.

Everything else is going pretty well, though. Hunting for an apartment at the moment, which is kind of a pain in the ass, but I really can't wait to be living out of the house again. I'm moving in with my girlfriend, so I'm pretty excited. I've been checking out alot of new music lately, and it's at the point where it's even too much to list here. I wind up downloading at least a few new bands every few days, and I lose track of what I find.

I need to go eat. I've been really sick the past couple of days, and haven't been able to eat much.
 
 
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chasingthdragon
30 March 2010 @ 03:29 pm
So I just registered for my summer classes, after a lot of fucking pain in the ass shit about how I'm missing a class needed to graduate, which is only offered in the spring. Thankfully, the department head is letting me sub a Psych class for the credits, so I'm pretty happy about that.

But the thing I'm most excited about is the film class I'm gonna be taking. A Major Filmmakers class focusing on Martin Scorcese and David Lynch. Fuck. Yes.
 
 
chasingthdragon
14 March 2010 @ 10:23 pm
So I haven't updated in for fucking ever. Been really busy with school and 2 jobs (one paying, one not, sadly).

Allie left this morning to go back to school. Her spring break ended today, and mine just started. I'm looking forward to just relaxing, and doing nothing. I have my internship tomorrow, then getting obnoxiously drunk on Wednesday. Very excited.

My buddy Harrison turned me on to What.cd, one of the best sites ever. Torrenting in a flash, to sum it up. I've already downloaded a shitload of new music, and I'm not even close to being done yet.
 
 
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chasingthdragon
17 February 2010 @ 01:38 am
01. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
02. Go to IMDB, and find a quote from each movie.
03. Post them here for everyone to guess.
04. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie. (Bonus points if you can guess the actor/character who said it)
05. No cheating!


1.
Well, Alzheimer's can't be all bad. You get to meet new people every day.

2. Tigers love pepper... they hate cinnamon. The Hangover, echosequence 

3. I'm forty-seven. Forty-seven years old. You know how I stayed alive this long? All these years? Fear. The spectacle of fearsome acts. Somebody steals from me, I cut off his hands. He offends me, I cut out his tongue. He rises against me, I cut off his head, stick it on a pike, raise it high up so all on the streets can see. That's what preserves the order of things. Fear.

4. That's the last time you put a knife in me! Y'hear me? The Royal Tennenbaums ketene 

5. Same thing happened to me when I played Neil Armstrong in Moonshot. They found me in an alley in Burbank trying to re-enter the earth's atmosphere in an old refrigerator box.

6. Let me tell you something, pendejo. You pull any of your crazy shit with us, you flash a piece out on the lanes, I'll take it away from you, stick it up your ass and pull the fucking trigger 'til it goes "click." The Big Lebowski, astrokittie (The Jesus)
 
7. Ahhh! BINGO! How fun! But, I digress. Where were we?   Inglourious Basterds, astrokittie (Hans Landa)

8. You should read your Bible, sirs. You'll find all types of weird shit in there. Like, did you know Jesus was a Jew?

9. You want more mysterious? I'll just try and think, "Where the hell's the whiskey?" Lost In Translation, pretentiousname 

10. At that restaurant, I beat up the bathroom. I'm sorry.       Punch Drunk Love, pretentiousname 
 
 
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chasingthdragon
11 February 2010 @ 01:57 pm
This song is so fucking badass.


 
 
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chasingthdragon
10 February 2010 @ 01:19 pm
stolen from echosequence 

Take a picture of yourself right now. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair... just take a picture. Post that picture with NO editing.

Sitting around doing absolutely nothing. Collapse )
 
 
chasingthdragon
03 February 2010 @ 10:57 am
Have you ever had a nightmarish roommate? What made you incompatible? How did you eventually resolve your conflicts?

Ugh, I live with one now, and he was the subject of my 100_words entry on the elephant in the room. The problem is that he made a good first impression. He was friendly, engaging, and kinda funny, but as the weeks of school went on, he got so incredibly irritating and hated by everyone. He snores really, REALLY bad. Like, sleep apnea, choking in his sleep and shit. We've forced him out to the couch, since we all used to get woken up at 4 AM by his snoring and have to sleep out in the living room just to be able to get back to sleep. Two nights ago, I had to leave the room, because he decided he could sleep in the room again, and I was up until about 8 am trying to get to sleep, before finally getting about an hour's worth. But the worst part is, I was out in the living room, and he comes out of the room, LOOKS DIRECTLY AT ME, goes to the bathroom, COMES INTO THE LIVING ROOM AND WALKS AROUND, and goes back to bed. I wanted to punch him in the fucking face.

He ruins movies by talking, asking stupid questions, and playing music on his computer, which usually leads to him asking questions that would have been pretty obvious if he had been paying attention in the first place. For example: Whilst watching Platoon, one of the most depressing war movies ever made, in my opinion, he asks "Oh, is this a comedy?" AND HE WAS FUCKING SERIOUS!. WHAT THE FUCK!?

I could go on for like... pages and pages and pages about how much no one can stand this kid. But I may get angry again.
 
 
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chasingthdragon
01 February 2010 @ 12:08 am
I figured it was time for a fuckin' update, though I don't really know what I'm gonna write about. My life really isn't interesting. I'm so fucking BORING. Jesus. So. Uh...... my weekend. Sure. Let's go with that.

I'll put it out here now: Work is almost always a constant factor in my weekend. I work Friday nights, 5-10:30. Saturday, 11-9, and Sunday, 3-9. I deliver pizza. And I FUCKING HATE IT. I need a new job so badly. I'm praying I can get one out of my internship at the police station, even if it's sitting in the precinct all day filing papers and doing shit the people there don't seem to have the time to do themselves. I need a steady income flow. I'm working on saving for my own apartment for after school. And seeing as how I'm notoriously bad with money sometimes (I think my massive DVD collection can attest to that), I figured a decent New Years Resolution would be to get my shit straight with money.

So yeah. My weekend. Actually, before I get to that, I'll get to Wednesday. Like I mentioned, I'm interning at the police station in town for school. I've been sitting on the Critical Incident Unit training sessions. It's basically like the SWAT team there. They train on how to do door breaches, firearms, K9 unit stuff. I've seen it all. I missed out on the opportunity to go to Camp Smith with them. Camp Smith is this military/law enforcement training facility a bit upstate, and if I went, I would have gotten to shoot rifles, shotguns, and assault rifles. So I was talking to one of the detectives on Wednesday, and he was basically like, "Well, once the guys are done on the firing range, we can get you in there for a bit."

So, once they got done with their training exercise, one of the officers took me up to like, 10 feet away from the target, and taught me how to hold the gun, aim, and shoot. And it was so exhilarating and incredible. I can't even describe it. It was just amazing.

Friday... I went out with one of my friends to talk about some personal shit, which I won't mention here. Low key night, to be honest.

Last night, after I got out of work, my roommate Conor, our buddy Kevin, and I smoked a blunt and watched Batman. The original Tim Burton Batman. With Jack Nicholson as the Joker. And it was the first time I've seen it all the way through. But I was so fucking high... Jesus. It was awesome though. We planned on watching Moon, the new Sam Rockwell flick, but we figured it would be too trippy to handle while stoned.

This morning, Conor and I watched it, and we pretty much realized it would have been. It was an amazing movie, I just don't think I would have been able to handle it stoned.
 
 
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chasingthdragon
26 January 2010 @ 02:32 pm
Ugh I'm sick as hell. My throats been so sore for the past couple of days (I'm sure smoking doesn't help), and my body's been slowly shutting off on me. I've been so fucking tired lately, and it's really bothering me. I hope I don't have the flu. I've already missed basically 2 days of class because I've been sick as hell since the semester started, and it pisses me off.

Hopefully, I'll get some medication and I can be done with this. I wanna go to band practice tonight. Tomorrow night, Conor, Monica, and I are going to see Crazy Heart, the Jeff Bridges country flick at the indie theater near here, so I'm really pumped for that.

I think I'm gonna sit in and read for most of today. I wanna finish World War Z sooooo fucking badly. I'm roughly halfway through it, and it's so unbelievably addicting and engrossing and incredibly well written. It's possibly one of my favorite books of all time. 

This song has the most fucking brutal, amazing breakdown ever, btw.

 
 
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